I am spiritual. Not religious, but spiritual. I see the beauty of the world and know that it is not by accident. I know that I am not by accident. I have long since believed that my life is by design, led by a higher power.
Yet, for years I asked myself “Who am I? What is my purpose?” But I only found unsatisfying answers to those questions. To each answer I would then question, “really, is that it?”
I had my first natal chart reading in 2016. It confused me for the same reasons that I could never get satisfying answers to my questions – I hadn’t discovered myself yet. That all changed in June 2020 when I had a life changing experience, an incident that ignited a fire in my soul to discover who I am.
Since then, I have been on an intentional and focused journey to heal myself from the effects of sexual abuse, bullying and emotional neglect. More than two years later as I prepare to take my story public and to launch my own brand, website, and this, my first blog post, I understand so much more about me and the work that I am here on this earth to do. I Am Scorpio Rising – is an homage to who I am.
Scorpio Rising means that my sun sign for my birth date, October 26th, is Scorpio and Scorpio was the rising sun sign in the east at the time and place that I came into this world. I see me in almost everything that I study about Scorpio Rising.
Scorpio is transcendence. Scorpio is powerful in every way, physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. The powerful part of who I am is hard to wrap my head around; my inner critic can be rather loud sometimes. But I know my power is for good, not evil, so that makes it a little easier for me to accept. When I look back over my life and what I have survived, though, I can see my strength and power.
When I look back over my life and what I have survived, though, I can see my strength and power.
Here’s where I start to see me: Scorpio deals with sexual energy – sexual karma and sexual betrayal – death, and money. I’ve got two of these under my belt – sexual energy and money. I’ve got lived experience with sexual abuse and come from a family fraught with it. Professionally I am a white-collar crime investigator, often dealing with the fraudulent disappearance (theft) of money from an organization or its investors. I guess dealing with death in some other way than just dying may come at some point in my life. It does for all of us; I wonder what I am to learn?
Scorpio is about secrets and can hang around in darkness, shadows and the ugly. This shows up in my personal life where the history of sexual and other abuse in the family was held in secret, never a word uttered – the pink elephant in the room – for years, perhaps generations. In my family, my parents’ generation are cycle breakers (those who break the pattern of abuse); my generation are cycle breakers. But we’ve only begun to talk about the reality and impact of the abuse in our family as my generation has dealt with our manifestations of survivorship.
Secrets also show up in a big way in my professional life because most of what I am investigating is buried. Don’t be shocked by the news that fraudsters are secretive people!
Scorpio is a natural problem solver and knows how to find out what’s not being exposed. I’ve always been a problem solver, acting quickly to resolve whatever needs to be resolved without giving much consideration to how to get from one point to the next. The path always seems to reveal itself.
Professionally, I’ve spent the last 30 years solving problems, uncovering the facts, and exposing truth – this is what I do to put a roof over my head. And now I’m doing that for myself. Uncovering familial secrets and the facts about what I have survived, and exposing the truth about who I am.
Scorpio Rising brings light to darkness, spurred forward – oftentimes – by childhood trauma. As developed Scorpio Risings, we look at our own shadow, or darkness, and love it. And we take our own learning and turn it into the greater good for humanity.
I experienced my first trauma when I was five years old, and then it kept building for the next 45 years and sometimes it was my own shadow and darkness that inflicted more pain on me. But now that I’ve been looking at my darkness, I have come to a place where I accept it and I love it. Now I am embarking on a journey to take my own learning out to help other people.
I am in this life working with real power.
I am in this life working with real power. What I do with that – use it for myself, perhaps in a dark way, or use it for the greater good of my fellow humans – is influenced by other astrological forces in my life, my own spirituality and the choices that I make each day.
My Scorpio Rising is influenced astrologically as a communicator, a minister, a healer, with deep understanding of and respect for emotions. With unconditional loving. I am here to help people with complex problems, including generational curses, familial trauma and the traumas experienced by people who are born female.
I know now that I have been living my life’s purpose since I was born. I’ve had to experience what I have experienced and learn what I have learned for myself first. 45 years of experiences, followed by over two years now of intense and focused healing and learning.
I am on this earth to understand, personally, the gamut of human emotion, and to use my own experience to help others as they bring light to their darkness. Not to alter or adjust what we have experienced, but to learn to love it, accept it, and thereby, heal. To help others find their way to healing. I’m healing myself, first, and then through self-exposure of my own healing and loving, I want to help people to find value in their own journey, to discover what they don’t know, what’s hidden within them, what their afraid of, and what they are denying. To heal those things within themselves through loving.
Hope Evolve And Love.
I Am Scorpio Rising.